Why do I do this to myself?

Why? Why? Why?

I am racing Tugaloo tomorrow. And, of course, I don't want to. I never want to race the day before and of a race. I never feel ready. I never want to get up at 4am. (Actually, the only time I've ever been excited to race and have felt ready is Gulf Coast this year...I think that might have had something to do with it being a half IM and I was training for a full.) The rest of the time....I am OUT.

Why I do race is the feeling that I get during and after. Once I am 5 minutes into the swim, I enjoy myself. I like pushing. I like seeing how I can do, can I catch that one? How fast can I transition? It is fun. I like being totally focused. I LOVE finishing. (Can you tell I am trying to get excited for this race?)

Mike and Ella are coming with me tomorrow, which is going to be awesome. Can't wait to see them cheering me on.