Friday, May 22, 2009

Grounded

So, we're back home from NY (since Monday night, but the darn internet has been out -- hence no blog updates.)

On the ground. Safe and sound. Exhale slowly.....

I was truly, truly scared of this trip.

The plane was freaking me out. Seriously freaking me out.

My brain on the plane..
(idontwanttobeonthisthingughthatguyistooclosetomewhyishecoughingWHATISTHATNOISE???mikeholdmyhandHOLDMYHAND!!!deepbreathhowmuchlongerdidyouhearthatbang??)

My dread got really bad. So much so that I went to talk to someone about it.

She told me after once to come back. Thought two "talks" might help more, in her professional opinion. :)

And it did.

But, not as much as upping the dose of valium I took.

Much better now.

The "crazy doctor", as I so nicely refer to her, talked about grounding myself on the plane.

Doing what I need to make it okay for me..whatever that might be. For me? It is drugs. Plain and simple....and really deep breathing helps, too. I want to travel to far away places. On planes. I am scared. So, I deal.

I never want to let fear of something dictate to me what I can and can't do. That just makes me mad. The fear. I am thinking, who are you (fear) to tell me what I can and can't do? I am just a bit stubborn, huh?

And oh, do I have some fears. Open water being a big one. Triathlon anyone?

Some pics of all of the stuff we've been up to lately...

My dad came up to visit. We went out for bagels...Alice's new favorite food.


Mike, his dad and Alice and some really pretty grass and trees.


Miss Alice -- coming up on 10 months already. She is thisclose to crawling now.


Mike's from the OC. OC, NY, that is.


The Parker Fam. And Riley the dog. With a halo on. :)


The Hudson Valley (where Mike's family lives) is so pretty. The view from the restaurant.


Wet and Wild Days at E's school. She LOVED it.


4 comments:

Mama Simmons said...

I was just thinking about you yesterday and thinking that you hadn't updated your blog for a while and was wondering how you were doing!
Sorry about your fear of planes. And open water. Just don't take the drugs to combat the latter fear. ;)
Oh, and Alice just gets cuter all the time! Look at those eyes!

Rebecca DeWire said...

Elena and I were reading this post together and she got super excited about Alice's pic. It was so cute! Glad you had a nice visit. You are brave to fly there and face your fear head on.

Heather said...

Adorable kids!

DC Running Mama said...

Re: the fear of flying. You might try hypnotherapy...I had a friend that swore by it for her fear of flying. Heights freak me out...like crazy person freak out. Which is ironic because I LOVE hiking. I had a bad experience at Angel's Landing in Zion Nat'l Park and have never been the same since. Great pics. The dog in halo cracked me up!